You hate me? Aww Hai losers :)


Hey bitch, remember i'll treat you like how you treat me k 
I never born to please any bitch of you
I don't talk about the problem doesn't mean i don't care
I don't ask, doesn't mean i don't know
Because you know why? 
I got brain bah ngong
Sometimes i wonder why, why bitches must talk people bad behind bah
look at yourself first la
You so pretty? amzing? smart? cute? awesome? perfect?
Fcuk la kay :)
nobody's perfect
You ain't too
And remember, nobody gonna follow your step
I WON'T
if you want i become the person u want, sorry la
Impossible kay
Since im not that important to you, im not an important friend
it's okay, we can just be a ordinary friend
I don't mind :)
As long as stop making trouble
Then nothing la


But bitches, watch out your attitude
And the way you talk to me
And the way you talk about me
Telling ppl im bad don't make you become good la lol
From the start till the end, i never do a single fcuking stuff to make any of you hate me right
Stop hate me la bitch, you look so jealous bah :)
Don't judge ppl 
No good oh :)
And don't behave like a kids la
You're too old to be call a kid now
FUNNY HUH?
Stop childish-ing already
it's really disgusting & the ugly part of you
If you think you're lake of love, go la find someone love you
Not find someone to jealous of :)
I don't like to mad too much, so i don't scold you like a love song 
But doesn't mean i won't sing a love song for you next time kay
behave yourself la
because i got no time to teach you how to behave bitch :)

O.O


January of 2012 :)
These days im so lazy to updated my bloggie.
Because nothing to share.
My life's kinda boring.
And getting boringggggg ):
My bloggie like my daily diary.
I share everything here.
but i never feel better after i share also.
Haih
Cny holidays so fast end!
Whyyyyyy )':
I want more holidays la hello.
School really boring and lame.
Getting boring again.
Stupid new principal, like a bitch.
Chinese woman wear baju kurung everyday.
Wtf?
Latihan sukan every week.
You think students are made of robot?
"Slut"
try you latihan with us everytime la.
You die die also.
We stay almost everyday every week.
tired buss!
We're not robot!
We're not your dogggggggg!
No good no good grrr.


Chinese new year i go back to my hometown.
it was kinda fun :D
But kinda tired.
Actually nothing to do there.
But i'm like a babysitter -,-
Jaga kids everyday.
Lol
No night life.
But actually i don't like clubbing life and stay up late outside.
it's kinda boring.
Stay home or movie sound better :D
They say i never try never know, but what i like i know myself.
I used to stay home or go out movie.
I don't want to change also.
What for i change to a girl like to go clubbing and so on?
People only call this as a bitch-,-
Blablabla
Who cares.
So long i never go out movie already, i missed a lot of nice movie ))));
I want go out movie la!
Sad ):
Busy everyday, study, homework, tuition and what else?
Slepp cause too tired.
no time at all.
no life la hello! 
Anyways, life getting different now.
So hardworking in the school because scare i cannot catch up the lessons and cannot carry those stupid subject-,-
So hardworking to do homework because i scare those stupid punishment.
What kind of school life.
Damn it.









2012 :)


Wow it's 2012!
Times past so fast.
It's a brand new year.
And i cut my hair.
Just want to try something new :)
It's been so long i didn't update my blogger.
And school reopen soon so i update la.
Something idk where to start with.
I still remember the first day i saw him without his shirt and it was awkward.
I was like omg.
Then he find me and we talk and talk.
But he is a person like shy cause he not really talk to me.
He not really talk a lot.
And i don't used to talk first or find people first so we less talking.
But still he get my attention.
Like when i saw him i was like awkward cause idk why.
Then, he told me he like me and i was shocked cause i don't really know him well.
But im appreciate it cause i know he's such a good guy.
And so on, we talk more.
Cause for me, i won't start any relationship when i don't even know a guy.
And i tried to talk more with him.
But after that, someone appear between us.
And that was someone i knew before him.
So we talk more than him.
And actually i know he was jealous?
Cause i will notice him.
But then things messed up.
Everything goes so wrong.
I started confused.
And he started to give up.
But why did you tears my heart apart?
You said you love me from the start.
But i guess you're not really meant it.
And i told myself on the last day of 2011 i must forget.
But now is the second day of 2012, i still remember.
But i hide emotion very very well.
So that nobody could really know what's wrong with me.
I still smile like usual, talk like usual.
But when i saw him again, i know my pretend totally sucks.
And my brain stuck.
Because i wonder why he can pretend better than me.
Look like im the loser.
Well, im always the loser.
These days when i close my eyes i think of him.
Stupid right.
I still remember how he made me smile :)
But i guess he just don't want to remember anymore.
I finally realize something.
When someone important gone, then you found out how important they are.
And you regret why you never learn to appreciate people around you.
Now everything has gone to memories, but i wish i could knew the truth.
Do you really meant it when you said it?


when i close my eyes i think of you 
and the times we have been through 
even though we're far apart right now 

i remember back when you were here with me 
how you've made my world complete 
but now i'm left alone 

we talked about love and hope 
wishing we could start a life our own 
i wish that i could live without you

why did you tear my heart apart 
you said you'll love me from the start 
all those painful things you've put me through 
but i'm still loving you

i've tried to give my best to you 
i don't deserve the things you do 
everything has gone to memories 
i just wish i knew the truth behind the lies 

幸福,就是这样吗


昨天,我的生日
总是,事事不顺
不知怎么了
天气,也不怎么好
我好狼狈
当时,我好希望这一天从来没有来
可是,她们,总告诉我,没事
可是,我总是很自责
好像,什么都是因为我
好像,连老天都告诉我,我不被爱
我真的不被爱吗?
可是,当我看到她们为我忙碌,为我准备,为我做了那么多
我,再也不觉得我不被爱
也许,老天不是那么讨厌我
把那么一点点的爱,分我一点
我就很幸福了
谢谢你们,为了我,在那一天,做了那么多
我,不会忘记








谢谢你们





I'm 16! :D


我们,就好像不管发生什么事,我们还是会走在一起
其实,我很想你
虽然,我说过,我不能
可是,我好像更不能没有你
怎么办
我每天都想你,每天都希望看到你的信息
可是,却,没有你的信息
那天,你突然来信
我吓到了一下
心,也跳动了一下
可是,你却发了第二封,“Sorry, send wrong"
当时,我的心,疼了一下
我知道,是我先放开,我没有资格这样
可是,心脏那里,却痛了
原来,我还是在乎
很,在乎
我嫉妒
我不想看到你和别人走在一起
我惭愧
我自私
我认了
可是,这个我还值得你爱吗?
我已经原谅
只是,我却好希望开口的是你
所以,这次,又是我先对你开口了
又是,我先失败的告诉你
我想你了
对不起
我一点都不伟大
我自私的希望你能会到我身边
可以吗?
也许,我们之间还存在着什么?
我多想问问你
我不舍得
我以为,我会过的很好
可是,没有你的日子,我却过的无比难受
是因为,我从来没有放开过吗
我们,能从头来过吗
怎么办 </3

因为有你们,我的生活变的如此美丽 ♥


因为我幸运的拥有你们,我的生活变的多么美丽
因为我拥有你们,我变的多么幸福
即使,有时候我们会有不断的吵闹
但是,也因如此我们的感情变的坚硬
多谢老天,它让变的很幸福
它,让我遇见你们
它,让我拥有你们
我很幸福的拥有爱我的家人
因为他们,我学会不轻易放弃
我学会如何爱
即使,我们吵过无数次
可是,我们的感情永远不会断
不管,我们说过多伤人的话
我们,还是站在一起面对
谢谢你们,我的家人
多谢老天,让我拥有她们
因为她们4个的存在,我的生活变的如此美好
虽然,我们吵架过,生气过,打闹过
可是,我很开心和你们分享荣耀的每一分钟
如果生活少了有你们陪我,我整天开着手机也感到失落
因为我最想看到彼此的笑容
因为你们,我拥有真心的朋友
聊日出日落
聊生活乐趣
聊童年往事
因为你们,我开始喜欢我的生活
谢谢你们
我每天都希望,我们永远不分开
即使,我们常吵架
因为我们,建立了最真挚的友情
我相信,我们拥有真心的友情
谢谢你们,所有爱我的人

我是傻瓜


今晚,我突然的不想睡
因为,我想他了
这些天,我一直一直想着他
不知怎么了
想念他的感觉,稍微强烈了
其实,我好想问你
”我们可以吗“
可是,尽管每次鼓起勇气却还是放弃了
因为,我没有勇气
当时,想拥有我的你,应该已经不在了吧
应该,你已经彻底的放弃了吧
我好想说,对不起,我后悔当时放开你的手
可是,一切太迟了对不对
我,后悔,可是后悔却改变不了什么
我知道,是我先放开了
不是想挽回,就能挽回什么
如果,时间能回头
如果,你再问我同样的问题
我的回答绝对不会再让自己后悔
如果,能给我一次抓起你的机会
我绝对不会轻易的放开
可是,世界没有如果
不会有如果
我已经不知道我还可以怎么办了
真的,我需要你


我知道,你付出了很多
也许不是很多
但是,我知道你真的有尝试让我感觉到
我感觉到了,真的
可是,对不起
我还是无法接受你的好
别对我太好,我会很内疚
她们总说,为什么我不试着接受别人的好
也许,我可以放弃
可是,我还是做不到
对不起,不要再对我那么好了
我真的怕,如果我真的被感动了,我接受了,可是那只是依赖并不是爱
那,我宁愿等他,也不想耽误你的幸福
因为,我不想因为我选择错误,而赔上了一段幸福
我也不习惯,伤害人
可是,如果你真的愿意等到我忘记他的那一天
也许,我会真的爱上你的
可是,绝对不是现在
谢谢你的美好 



多么想告诉自己
放弃吧,面对吧
可是,我却做不到
我还是爱他,即使他曾经说了那种话
可是,是我先放开的
我不可以再后悔了
我不想再放开,如果我有那么一次的机会
可是,我好怕,连一次机会都没有了
可是,至少我努力过不是吗
希望,我还有那么一个机会
我不再害怕坦诚的告诉,我爱他
因为,不想再失去
即使失去,至少我学会了面对
“爸,可以请您为我们想一下吗?”
我们,真的不可以这样继续下去了
她,会累的
我,会心疼的
心脏那里,会痛
尤其是,看见她心疼的样子
“妈,不管怎样我还是会留在你身边的”
因为,我最爱你了
到数5天,就到了
以前的我,总是很期待它的到来
可是,现在不知怎么了
希望,它别那么早到来
因为,我会怕
这一天,应该是幸福开心的一天
可是,对我却是让我想起痛的一天
因为,我的到来,并不是被计划好的
而是,不幸中来的
他们,是被计划和期待到来的
而我,却是不幸中麻烦到来的
我可以说些什么
即使,我说“你们可以爱我多一点吗”
也,没有那种资格了
因为,我的到来不是预想的
其实,我根本不应该到来的不是吗
所以,属于我的这一天
又有什么好庆祝的
那岂不是在嘲笑我不被爱吗
多么可笑的一天
我希望,我不许要过这一天
可是,我却好想借这仅仅属于我的这一天
许下我的愿望
许下,我想拥有的
我希望的
我想要的
就仅仅这些愿望
我多么希望即使属于我的这一天多么可笑
都能帮我实现我的愿望
每年,我都会许下我心里的愿望
即使,我的愿望还没有成真
但是,我不会放弃
因为,只有属于我的这一天
我才有资格许愿
如果天真的有那么一点同情我
请您,实现我的愿望好吗
我真的希望
在我周遭的人
是幸福的
不管是亲人,朋友还是爱人
请,让他们幸福好吗
我,求您了